The environment within which we were raised, as a child, teenager, and until now, is the same environment that has resulted, in part, in our current configuration. This environmental constitution elicits particular behaviours from us, resulting in particular perspectives and ways of viewing and interacting with reality. Within this environment we are only able to … Continue reading On changing.
O' how the water tastes, sipped after the breaking of fast, after I crunch on bread - all my needs met. Nay, nay, that well lies far away. You need not drink that liquid, for it will cause you illness. I say sir, have you heard of the well on the yonder? Nay, I say. … Continue reading A water so sweet.
I feel damaged despite the healing that I've done. I feel insecure in romantic relationships, they trigger a nervous system response which makes me feel unsafe in relationship. I was abandoned multiple times before I was a teenager, by my mother, by my father, and by foster families. I was emotionally neglected as a child … Continue reading Attachment trauma.
Sometimes it feels like my heart is open or it's deadbolted and sealed shut. But if you open the door just a little, it flies open and off the hinges. When this happens the energy that surges through me, that courses through my veins fills my mind with fantasies of the possible, of what could … Continue reading Untitled #8974
To be loved is to be open, To the boundless possibilities, Though I catch myself hopin', And so I keep my door open, I scream and shout in sadness and anger, But deep down I just want to be close, My creativity is knows the possibility, And also the probability, That you view me as … Continue reading Open
You were born alone and you will die alone - nobody is going to save you. The only person that you can rely on is yourself, and to trust another is a risk; to trust another with your thoughts and emotions is an unnecessary risk. People will hurt you and disrespect your emotions if you … Continue reading You are alone in this world.
Only when we are empty do we become full... the breath that is held, is lost. When we are left breathless, no sooner are we aware than the breath returns to us in full. And just like that, that which we let go of hath returned. Wholeness and emptiness are one and of the same. … Continue reading Emptiness.
I feel so hurt that I cannot cry; my eyes are a desert, and I'm lost wondering alone. You are a concealed blade that comes to play during the most intimate embrace. You are violent and selfish, and I am dumb and enamoured. I hate that I love you, and I hate you, too. I … Continue reading Dry eyes.
I feel so hurt, betrayed, and uncertain. I hate feeling like this, I hate feeling like I can't rely on someone, and I hate feeling disrespected and unappreciated. The feeling that one wrong move is the end of your relationship is a torturous feeling. One error, one misstep, one... difference, and then you are in … Continue reading Anxious feelings.
The night is hot and I can't sleep. Acceptance of the impending fatigue - it must the embraced, and so I get in my car. Engine purring, I just start to drive with no destination in mind, I just drive. And yet, I end up on your street; I don't know why, I wasn't going … Continue reading Number 8 N_______